I do care actually
I took a nap after lunch with familia which end up with nightmare ( thank Allah it just a bad dream ). On that dream it was today when I’m suppose to meet him, but I got to many distraction that made be unable to reach to his place. But when I got the chance, suddenly his home is no longer there. It change to beach area ( weird dream ). And I received a call from his ex friend calling on behalf of him asking if I really wanna meet him. He don’t even wanna to talk to me anymore. At that time, I know that was it. That will be the last time I ever heard his voice and will never see him again. His ex friend scolded me because I forgot about our meeting and I was so upset and almost cry, then suddenly I woke up. Alhamdulillah, it just another bad dream.
And it was heavily raining when I woke up so I just text him to let him know about the rain, and ask if he’s back home yet.
Oh my, the feeling that I get ( even it was in the bad dream ), that I’m gonna loose him, I was so scared and so sad.
So, actually I do care for him. I can’t loose him, yet. Not now.
Oh beb, please be safe anywhere you go.